Which Way?

"- Let`s meditate together... And help me to succeed being what I always desired to be.

More precisely?

- Positive, open to knowledge, immune to pessimism and suffering.

And how do you think I could help you?

- To start trusting myself and others... to open up to love... and to complete myself before others. To find myself a purpose and stop destroying myself. You can! You always can!

How?

- It`s enough what you transmit to be able to help a person. Though in my case I need your presence.

Expand!

- Your presence is all the support that I need.

Why? What do you feel different in my presence?

- Because I feel you.. I feel you within me, I feel what you transmit... I feel stillness. I think stillness contains all that I feel.

The empty space is your support then. Therefore you do not need my presence but the empty space. You need to throw away everything.

- Good explanation but it doesn't fit me, to also find myself an excuse. Through you I can understand things in different ways... And those different ways, different than my ways, help me getting where I want. Besides, you are enlightening for me, mentor, therefore I need you.

The need must be thrown away as well.

- The need will be thrown... but not you. Why would I throw you away from within myself?

Not me but the need for me. Besides, which me? I am you.

- And how do I do to throw away the need for you? From where comes our desire to have those we love close to us?

From our belief that we need something more than what we are.

- What do we need for real?

Nothing. Nothing = Empty Space

- And how do we do to catch the idea that we need nothing to be happy? I feel you Buddha today. Buddha said we need nothing to be happy.

I think we catch the idea having a look here and there to the happy ones, or detaching ourselves from all the ideas. Besides, I think all the enlightened ones said the same thing. The way is both within and without you.

- Listening to you I start understanding what I am looking for. What I want, and on what level obviously.

Can you name it? Or name them?

- Completion.

You seek for completion?

- That is what I start to believe.

Completion to? What is already complete?

- If I would say is complete I would lie to myself.

Do you think that anything from the divine creation can be incomplete?

- Is incomplete because it is not discovered. Like in my case: I feel incomplete as long as I don`t know all, I didn`t discovered all. How not to feel so when I know that in fact they exist and I do not know them. I have no idea of them. And because I am in darkness I cannot understand them.

Because you are connected to the source.

- And what that means?

That means that if you look in the right direction you will know and understand them all. Being part of the Source. Like a living cell that divides one from another, and finally being part of the whole, has within the same information.

- And here comes the need to be guided, because you are confused. It is useless to look upon more ways at once if you do not know and do not feel what is your way.

Any of them can be the way. It doesn't matter which, you just have to choose one and walk on it.

- Can be.

Can be and is, in the essence, in the divine omnipotence. Any of them is the way and any of them can be the way. All the ways lead there.

- In other words, you need nobody but you should do what you feel like doing.

What you decide doing. Choose the way that seems yours and go on further... cause in essence it leads there also. More precisely to do what you are doing. Doing = The Decision Of Doing.

More precisely the decision to walk on the way is fulfilled only walking on the way. Without trying, without deciding. The action in itself is the decision.

- I understand.

Meaning, if you choose to walk no way you are arrived, you are already there. And when you are already there you don`t need anymore life, time, existence.

- Have you arrived there? Are you already there?

Yes, with an eye. And with the other I pretend I didn`t. So I can have reasons to walk on ways.

- Explain to me.

When you were born as "A. V. C." you fulfilled a decision to have a walk trough existence. The decision of the Divine to be part instead of whole. It`s more a divine metaphor, because the part cannot be part without the whole and is always whole. So being divine, you choose to forget you are already there so you can have reasons to lop about to yourself. From here the alfa and omega, the beginning and the end.

- I like it.

Any way you take, more or less pleasant you arrive to the place, only with a different experience. At the end, when you arrive there you remember you are the whole and you become (though you already are) one with the experiences of all the other parts. Without your experience the whole would not be whole. As because you ARE, you are part of the whole and so THE WHOLE. Does it have any sense for you what I say?

- Yes. Continue.

Because you EXIST, you walk on ways anyway pushed by the will of one or another. As long as you don`t fulfil your own will. If you choose to see with both eyes that you are already there, you can leave your human body because there is no need to fulfil anything.

- I understand.

Or you choose to close one eye, or both. When you close them both you forget you are already there and you struggle in a process of remembering. When you suffer too much going on the one`s way or another`s your body cannot keep you any longer and sets you free from existence in the BEING.

- I understand.

So what is there to be done? Know that you are there! And travel any road with pleasure and joy.

- Of course.

There is nothing more to be said. By saying more we would only dawdle."

excerpts from "Dialogs with Odilia Carmen"

...in truth, OdiliaCarmen